A Realisation is What I Have Come To

A realisation is what I have come to.

The end of a very long road,

the beginning of a very wide highway.

Steps confused and tormenting,

breaths short and sharp.

Along this winding road many dips, bridges, and potholes I have passed.

Along this steep hill many crashes, swerves, and hazards I have endured,

or have I?

I turn a corner and reach a new height, only to find I’m lower than I was before.

I search for this love, this peace, this destination, my destination, only to find pain.

At the end of this road is the start of one more treacherous than the last.

Every stumble, every crash, strengthens my stride.

Every stumble, every crash, renews my mind.

Every stumble, every crash, brings me to a new realisation.

And with each injury a harder skin is formed on the surface.

But now I see, it is not harder at all, but weaker,

cracking under all the hurt and pain that my journey has caused me.

I reached a point where I believed I could hurt no more,

could cry no more,

could long for the end no more.

Then, suddenly it hit me.

A car, so far away yet so close,

swept me from under my feet,

knocked the wind out my lungs,

cut my heart, all without my feet leaving the ground.

I now know that you do not have to fall to hit the bottom.

Each day can be a daily dying.

A birth of something new, a new me, a new you, a new road.

Will I ever reach that highway, where my love, peace, my destination shall keep me, help me to shed the hard skin that has grown weak over the course of my travels?

Each pilgrim do I care for.

Each travellers on their very own journey like my own.

Loving me, lifting me, pushing me, grazing my heart.

With a blink of an eye that peace, that love I found in you turns into the treacherous vehicle that silently hits my soul.

My happiness lost without me realising it was gone until the end of the road.

A realisation is what I have come to.

The end of a very long road,

the beginning of a very wide highway.

Help me to learn and grow.

Help me to shed the hard skin that has grown weak over my journey, so I may walk to the end of my highway.