A Lost Memory

I never thought that someone I loved could surprise me,
Shatter the innocence of a relationship.
The love I had was so strong, yet misunderstood.
I looked at you and saw a strong pillar, a wise man.
Now I look back I see an empty void where that purity was.
A love so deep, it never died, another tear out of a thousand cried.
I wake up after a night in the dark,
Looking, searching for the soul I once knew.
I wish I could understand what you did, or why.
Then again I don't really want to.
It took me only a while to forgive and forget,
Although, I still hate myself for letting u die,
In spirit and truth,
That day stays with me, haunts me, helps me to grow.
A sea of thanks is what you are due, because yesterday is gone,
And today I'm new.
Long gone are the days when I looked up to you,
I wonder if you ever look down on me.
Its scary but I can see you in me, like a reflection on water,
Drifting away, far, gone.
The memory is gone but the feeling stays,
Strengthening the toughest days.
Once a broken bridge, now a sturdy tower, I stand and walk.