I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder,
I wonder why I bother,
Why I try
And I wonder,
Would you bother?
Would you try?
The sad thing is, I doubt you would
Nothing but doubt clouds my mind these days
I doubt myself,
My feelings,
My wants and fears,
My loved ones,
You,
And even God
I long for the day when I'll hold you and feel secure.

Sometimes I wonder,
I wonder why I fight,
why I bother loving
And I wonder,
Would you fight?
Would you bother loving?
The sad thing is I don't think you would, for me at least

I don't think my heart can take this
If I had known love and pain where practically the same, I would of chose another option, another route.
However, now it’s too late to change my direction, because I Love You,
And I don't have to wonder, I know